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  • Limbo

    Limbo

    As I anguish here in Limbo,Waiting for my heart and soul to heal,I know that it takes time to grieve,Before my new life can begin.But Limbo is lonely.Limbo is painful.My husband and I were a family.Our home was filled with love, life, laughter and joy.Now I’m stuck here all alone.Alone.In the quiet.Where my negative thoughts… Read more

  • Upside Down

    Upside Down

    Grief has turned my whole belief system upside down. I don’t mean my belief in God. My faith has grown much stronger during this time of adversity. It’s more my life philosophy that has been flipped on its head. Before my husband died, we both believed with every fiber of our being that life was… Read more

  • Let it Flow & Let it Go

    Let it Flow & Let it Go

    Immediately after my husband died, I instantly experienced to my core, the life lesson that up until this point was always a cliche, but now was a cold, hard truth-slap across the face. And that was the realization that, oh my God, you really can’t take anything with you! His body was still here, all… Read more

  • Lessons I’ve Learned in My Husband’s Death

    Lessons I’ve Learned in My Husband’s Death

    BREAK FREE FROM WORRYING, because it doesn’t add a single day to your life, just like the Bible says. I’m middle aged, and I’ve spent my ENTIRE life worrying about every little thing, as if I could control anything at all. I’ve learned that even if you stress yourself out, trying to manage every detail… Read more

  • What My Golden Doodle Puppy Taught Me About Grief

    What My Golden Doodle Puppy Taught Me About Grief

    My little 6 month old golden doodle puppy got spayed today. My poor little baby, who was jumping around and bounding with energy just yesterday, had a hysterectomy today and is in so much pain. To make matters worse, her little head is wrapped in a plastic cone. She’s between sizes. The small cone was… Read more

  • I Miss Being The Girl

    I Miss Being The Girl

    I think one of the worst things about being a widow, besides EVERYTHING, is that I used to be a squishy girly girl. My man took care of me and I liked it … He took care of what I like to call “the boy stuff” around the house. I mostly did the woman stuff.… Read more

  • Jesus Will Speak Power Over Your Life

    Jesus Will Speak Power Over Your Life

    I had an epiphany today: It came to me that Jesus spoke EVERYTHING into existence with the Power of His Word – Heaven, Earth, everyone, and everything. So it stands to reason, that He can speak life and blessings over MY life and into my life, in an INSTANT – a new job, family, friends,… Read more

  • The 6 Month Mark After Losing My Husband

    The 6 Month Mark After Losing My Husband

    Yesterday marked 6 months since my husband died. I got through the day strong by keeping myself busy. I got out of the house, ran errands, and even perused bookstores and artsy places. But you can’t hide from grief. Grief will not be ignored. The wave crashes over you and floods your heart, soul and… Read more

  • Anger & Loneliness

    Anger & Loneliness

    I want to talk about grief. Not the normal grief of losing a grandparent or a parent in the normal timeline of things. I mean the loss of a child or spouse being ripped out of your life before their time, out of the natural order of things. It goes against everything your brain and… Read more